Logical Insanity

Finding Mr. Right is probably like finding a needle in a haystack. Or finding the perfect Jimmy Choo for your feet.

And it makes it harder since I am a dreamer.

I am a 24 year old cancerian, a mood swinger, and possess the quiet yet witty charm that a girl can possibly carrying herself. Being a single (hopefully would not be spinster) woman, I urge the quest to find my own Mr. Right. And um, yeah, this quest is not an easy one, I admit *giggle.

Since I am a dreamer (a silly one, I suppose), the qualification of a guy that I want may slightly be overwhelming. Well, overwhelming could be an underestimation since what I want from a man to be my Mr. Right is basically...everything. A-ha!

OK, I admit I dream about the guys in the movies too much. But I mean it. I love the fine character of the guys in the movies and would love that whoever man that will be lucky enough to be my man, possess these qualified characters.

Because, oh yess! The fictional guys that I dream of are almost perfect in their own way.

And who they are?

Let's take a look :)

1. Andrew Paxton - The Proposal (played by Ryan Reynolds)


Why I love him:

Andrew Paxton possesses this hardworking, energetic, witty, heartless yet warm personality that makes him attractive (aside from those jaw dropping abs and incredibly astonishing physique of Ryan Reynolds, lol). His witty-ness when it comes to dealing with Margaret Tate (his "Satan's Mistress" boss who'd later become his love interest) was just too cruel but funny. Margaret, on the other hand, is a cold blooded woman herself, who develop to be a cheered up woman when she later sort of fall for his own PA, Andrew Paxton. This unexpected feeling that grows in their hearts draws Margaret and Andrew closer. And at this stage we can see how Andrew transform from a heartless bloke into a warm-loving knight for Margaret.

So, it is the combination of his manliness and warm-loving quality who (without any doubt) took my heart away :)

2. Nicholas Deveraux - Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement (played by Chris Pine)



Why I love him:

Nicholas Deveraux is an aristocrat himself. His strong educational and social background made him a respectable well mannered young man in nature. However, his hobby of reading has not make him a boring guy indeed, for he has another hobby - dating the girls. The latter has made him quite a prince charming himself and caused him labeled a ladies man by the society. His arrogance, fierceness, combined with smart, easy going, yet romantic character are the reason why the girls loved him, why Mia Thermopolis loved him, and why I loved him too :)

3. Edward Cullen - Twilight saga (played by Robert Pattinson)



Why I love him:

Edward Cullen is a vampire that only drinks animal's blood, like a vegan in the human world. Being a vampire, he cautiously hides his identity, shut himself from the world, and it leaves him one word of that is his greatest charm - mystery. Aside from his handsomeness, Edward is sensitive, caring, mysterious, yet tough. He loves Bella, his mortal soul mate, more than anything in this world he would give his soul to the devil. He can read minds, he climbs up a tree faster than any living animals in the jungle, he glides from tree to tree, and he fights the bad vampires bravely. How can we take off our eyes from a man (a vampire, I mean) like Edward?

4. Tony Stark - Iron Man (played by Robert Downey Jr.)



Why I love him:

If any man on this earth is to be labeled as the bad boy, it is Tony Stark him self. Tony is an extremely rich man who aced MIT when he was a teenager, who masters math, physic and chemistry, whose exquisite top of the cliff house is all computerized, and who turns pieces of junks in a cave into a super robotic suit he used to escape from being a war prisoner. Aside from the money and the look, Tony Stark is charming because he is flamboyant, persistent yet golden hearted. Even though he is snob, and always surrounded by New York's creme de la creme, he actually is a kind person who aims his life for greater good, and a possible platonic love with his PA, Pepper Potts. This run first before you walk personality kind of melts my heart. I fall easy for man with brain, you know? :)

5. Mark Darcy - Bridget Jones' Diary (played by Colin Firth)



Why I love him:

Mark Darcy is an extremely brilliant yet frigid humanitarian lawyer. His character in Bidget Jones' Diary is basically based on Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice's Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy. And like the original Darcy, he is an awkward man, sometimes can be a bit rude, smart, and polished. At the first pages of the novel (as well as of the film), Mark Darcy was nothing but awkward and a rude person who always refer Bridget as to "used to walk naked on my paddling pool". It's quite charming actually, the way the build their relationship. But as time goes by, when Mark finally admits to Bridget that he likes Bridget the way she is, we can see the dawning part of him. And when he kisses Bridget in the finale of the movie, we can see that Mark is not that awkward, in fact, he's a heck of a good kisser ;)

6. Neil Jones - He's Just Not That Into You (played by Ben Affleck)



7. Officer Jack Traven - Speed (played by Keanu Reeves)



8. Jack Callaghan - While You Were Sleeping (played by Bill Pullman)

What do you do when you are lonely?
What do you do when you're sad?
What do you do when you're happy?
What do you do when you feel bad?

I read.

Letters. From A to Z, are healers. In their plain form they are mere letters, without meanings. But when you put them together, arrange them in order, they have thousands of meanings.

Letters then became words, and words became sentences, sentences became paragraphs, and paragraphs transform into poems, lyrics, proses, and when they became abundantly prolonged and descriptive they became books.

Books are my healer. I've read a lot of books. It's a legacy that I will pass on to my children, and grandchildren, and when my grandchildren pass it on to their grandchildren they will know that books are the greatest treasure of all.

Those sentences have millions of meanings. And those meanings heal thousands of broken hearts, inspired thousands of fallen souls, and feed thousands of hungered minds.

An old proverb say don't judge the book by its cover. And have we proven in countless time that the proverb is true. A book, regardless its torn, dusty cover, may have a tremendous power inside. The way it tells its story, the way it makes its reader hurl of crying and laughter, and left him/her a slice of heaven when he/she goes to bed, and enlighten him/her with new idea(s) the next day, has nothing to do with its cover.

A book, well-written, I believe, have a power to move thousand people with its words.

So, people, start reading.
Start dreaming.

And start writing. Now.

It started out as a feeling
which then grew into a hope..

I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye..

Happiness. Is what I feel when I hear this song. The Call by Regina Spektor. It's a light music, breezy, and soft. A feel-good song to pick up my mood. I've been through a lot lately.

To be honest, few weeks back I was at a point when I couldn't even get up, when I wouldn't even want to get up. But God is so generous, He blessed me with a wonderful family and supportive friends. Now, happiness is what I want to pursue. Not that I don't feel happy right now. I do. It's just that this happiness I'm talking about is a lifetime journey of finding.

You can find your happiness through simple things in life. Joking around with your brother, share a story with your sister, give your mom and dad a hug and a kiss per day, talk to your bestfriends, having all-girls night out once in a while, having a blast with the boys on the weekend, exercising in the morning, or simply write down your thoughts on a paper - or in a blog :p

But the ultimate key thing to happiness is actually this: Give thanks to God. Everyday.

I've been trying to do those things now. I guess I could say my life now is more low key and simpler. Way back then I was a dream catcher, an ambitious young associates at the biggest (and the best, so they say) law firm in the country. I fried myself back there. And now I'm washing away the ashes, reincarnating as a new soul, trying to fill myself with passion and goodwill.

It's not easy, to stay on positive state like that everyday. But I'm keeping my faith, I'm praying. And these little things really help me going. These are some of my favorite things on earth. When I have time, I would sit in front of my computer, looking at these. These simply feed my soul.

These are what make me happy. and I want to share these with you :)

1. A peaceful corner in a peaceful house



Ok, I'm a bit of dorky person. I'm a bookworm. And I love reading in a breezy Saturday or whenever I have spare time. And it's hard to find a quiet place with amazing view pictured above. So, what happened? I googled it, haha. Seriously, I googled the places I want to be in a hope I can afford those places someday. And yess, I would be happy if I have a stress-free green corner of my own to spend my time reading and sipping my latte, just like the picture above. Well someday, I hope :)

2. Mr. Knightley


George Knightley, or better known as Mr. Knightley, is the lead male character in my favorite Jane Austen's romance, Emma. In the 1994 big screen film of Emma (starred by Gwyneth Paltrow), the character of Mr. Knightley was portrayed by Jeremy Northam.

Most of people might prefer Fitzwilliam Darcy than Mr. Knightley. I love Darcy. I want a man just like Darcy. But this Mr. Knightley guy, with his smart and down to earth persona, really blown my heart away. I love the way Jane Austen pictured him as a mature man, steady, smart, and golden hearted, more like a patron for Emma. I would like to feel love and security in the same time when I marry my man someday. So, imagining Mr. Knightley is more like a prayer to me :)

3. Chubby baby(ies)


*psst..the above baby picture is actually me when I was 3. Tee hee! :D

So, yes. I love babies. I am a woman and I would like to have my own little angels someday. But it's not just it. Babies are somehow seems so clean, so pure. When they smile they seems so happy. It's like heaven.

4. My recent vacation


Posing with Merlion and the Esplanade as background.

Recently I went for a vacation to Singapore with one of my colleagues. It was a pleasant journey. None of us knew anything about Singapore. From our arrival in Changi until our departure in the same airport, we are strangers in Singapore. Thank God we had a little help from my cousin, Rio. It was an adventurous, independent, non-stress journey. I love the feeling..

*P.S. You can check out my journey in my previous post called "Vacation" down there :P

5. Cherry Blossoms



I don't know how to explain why I love cherry blossom. Most women will fall for roses. Well, I love roses. But it's cherry blossom that steal my heart if I seek comfort in just looking at it. There's something so serene about this flower. It just looks...peaceful.

6. Simple expression of love


*photo courtesy of Sloan Photography

The picture speaks for itself..

7. My pink baby


Meet my pink mp3 player. Too bad I don't have a name for it yet :)

I bought this Samsung mp3 player a few months back. I broke the left earphone a couple weeks ago, and I fixed it myself. It has now stored more than 100 songs, all of which are my favourites. This baby has accompanied me during my ups and downs, my happy and my sad, and has been a healer ever since.

8. A "homy" house



Well, I don't exactly dream about the above house -- or living room, to be precise. I dream about the "home". The house that is homy, peaceful, warm and welcome. I want my house to be a place of my own and also the place where my buddies can come over without feeling that they're coming to a stranger's place. That house will be the place where I spend my time loving my family, raising my kids, and watch them grow up. Right now, my family is my home. But someday, I would love to have my own home :)

So, what are your favorite things? Write them down now, dream about them, and make them real. Happy living, dear fellows. Let's make our dream come true. Together.

Love,
S.

Nowadays women has grown stronger. Men recognize their strength, and women are proud of their strength. However, women are still the same delicate creature of God. Some overcome their delicacy by maximizing their inner power, some seek for outer source (i.e. men). So, that leaves us to two types of women: Dependent and Independent Women.

Both types might have similar outside package, but inside, they’re truly different. Let me tell you about these differences:

A. Working

Dependent: Choose ‘secure’ job as the path of their career. Doing administration in the office, doing secretarial tasks, everything that comes from 8 am to 5 pm. In a bottom line, all jobs that do not inquire much risks.

Independent: Choose ‘rather challenging’ jobs as the path of their career. Tell them to go to court, they’ll ace it. Tell them to do research, they’ll kick it. They’re not afraid of going home 5 am in the morning alone by taxi. They’ve been to Borneo’s jungle doing site visits. So if you’re really into these women, don’t try telling them to “go home at 7, ok?” The woman might say yes, but in her heart she knew that the type of guy who told them that is a pincher.

B. The Way They Talk

Dependent: They tend to talk calmly to guys, they love to SMILE to guys, rarely disagree with guys, they say yes almost every time. Easy for guys to handle.

Independent: They have debate ALMOST EVERY MINUTE with guys, at work, at relationship, even with their boss or their own father. She loves to LAUGH with guys, she’s quite handful. When she disagrees to a boyfriend she would rather restrain from arguing. But if the guy pulled off her limit, she would be a fearless debater. It requires tough mature guys who’d wise enough to say: “you’re right, darling.” If she knows she was wrong, she would apologize in the next minute. But if you confront her, she would happily accept your war – and proudly win it.

C. When A Guy Offers A Ride

Dependent: When a guy offers them a ride home, she would be gladly to accept. Some of them may play it a little hard at start, but in their heart they’re still exciting. It wouldn’t be hard for guys to work the trick out.

Independent: When a guy offers them a ride home, they would first assess him. If he’s a good enough catch, she would be pumped to accept. But first, she would play hard to get or pretend that she’s been offered hundreds of ride by guys that she would play the ice queen to the guy. Be polite and be a gentleman to her, she would be a wily temptress. She may leave you with a hug or a kiss in a cheek before leaving.

D. Balancing the Daily Life

Dependent: They tend to cheer the guy first. When they see a guy’s note in facebook they may say: “wow good note. It’s so funny.” It’s understandable since she may not be familiar with the jokes because she never read the book, or she has read the book but still say something to show her admiration to the guy.

Independent: They don’t cheer they guy if they know the guy was doing plagiarism. They would not say: “wow, good note. It’s so funny.” When they know that the jokes written by the guy in facebook was not original and has been printed hundreds of time in jokes books sold at Gramedia across the nation. For her, it would be a waste of time to adore a douchebag. End of story.

E. The Way They Walk

Dependent: Clinging her hand to the guy or playing shy, tend to walk beside or behind the guy. It wouldn’t be hard for the guy to walk beside her. She may never leave your side as well.

Independent: Rushing daily life has made them a runner. They walk quickly, efficiently, and often ahead of guys. Please bear in mind that these women are regular high heels sprinter, so don’t be mad if they walk ahead of you in high heels. When they cross the street, they won’t be waiting for you. They cross hundreds of streets ALONE every day. Instead, initiate to run to them and walk beside them, balance your step with them, open the door for them, they will adore you as a gentleman.

F. Daily Life

Dependent: They tend to be more ‘womenlike’. Most of them are believers and easy to be manipulated.

Independent: They tend to be more ‘sophisticated.’ Most of them have instinct and eagle eye and was not easy to be manipulated. When she smells something’s not right, she has the reasonable doubt to go after your things to find out. You may think that it was against your privacy. You may think she hijacked your facebook. But in the first place, why would you gave her the password? Why would you say that you can cheat on her and she wouldn’t know? She knows it, brother. She has brain in her HEAD, not in her penis. Ring a bell?

G. Recovering A Broken Heart

Dependent: Tend to share the whole story with drama to a guy friend. Say “I just need a guy to help me get through everything.”

Independent: cried at the first night. Women, however heartless the may be, had and always will have a heart. And when someone breaks their heart, they will cry. But in the next day, they will get up and go outside. Meeting new friends, take a vacation, go to work, and get back on their feet. She doesn’t need a guy friend to take care of her. However, she still need guys to protect her. After all, she’s a she, remember?

So, dependent and independent women are different. But they are all women, they’re ALIKE. One basic rule: Women love to be adored. So, treat them nice. Don’t bullshit them with how many girls hop on you or sending you seductive text messages. No, man, it’s a recipe for disaster. If a guy has no feeling for anybody he would be ignorant even 100 girls were chasing after him. It’s something you don’t have to share with girls, especially to those independent women who have been there and done that.

So boys, do grow up. Being liked by the whole office is just a regular thing. Having girls waving at you is a regular thing. But when you can prove that you’re 100% loyal to your girlfriend and 100% loyal to your job, that would win a good woman. Because for women, if you still can’t stand on your own feet and still having your boss giving you shitballs everyday, you have WORKS to do. Don’t waste your time calling another girl, don’t waste your time walk around in the office building a connection with girls. GET YOUR ASS TO WORK!

Winning a woman’s heart is simple. Don’t just give her flowers or poem, give her your heart, and she will be yours.

They may be two types of women in the world. But when it comes to the hard part, all women are tough cookies.

Love,

S.

p.s. oh, if you ask me which type I am? I’ll say: “I’m in between.”

Yeaay!! Me and some friends went on International Java Soulnation Festival last Friday, and it was AWESOME!! Here's a picture we took at a photo booth that shows our filthy - yet expressive - face ;p


*tag: Alma Ardiatmadja, Me, Theresia Yulia Adriani.

And after I saw the performance of remarkable duo "The Ting Tings", I'm surely rooting for:



And I loooooveee JULES DE MARTINO!! ;p



Story behind My JavaSoulnation Trip:

I bought the tickets for 3 persons a month ago when they're still in early bird. I bought them for myself, and my friends Lia adn Erma. I went to the festival with them, too. It was nice to be hanging around with the old friends. We met Preti, Dimas, Uchie, Bram and their couple of friends there. So, we all gathered together in The Ting Ting's show. That was awesome. I tell you now, Jules De Martino and Katie White are fabulous! I fell in love with their music, with the beat. And oh, I think I fell in love with Jules... :P

After The Ting Ting's show, we spread out on our own directions. Lia, Preti, and I were out and we met my friends, Dinda Alvita (who's a model. Cool, huh?), Alma, and Chippie. we hang out briefly before we headed out looking for something to eat. Alma ended up tagging along with us. We watched several small performances in smaller stage from Indonesian musician before we went back to the main stage where Tortured Soul has already began their performance. And again, Tortured Soul's great! I had soar feet because I spent watching two performances dancing. and not stopping. Ouch!

Finally, Preti told me that she'd go home at 12.30. And I thought I was running late too because I drove alone. So, I went back home at 12.30 with Preti and her friends. It was a nice concert. Good music, good dance, good bonding with old friends, and some giggles with new friends.

I wish I could go to concerts like that again someday with my friends.
Have a blast, a new experience, and make new friends.

So, Java Soulnation, thanks for bringing back together the nation :)

On 8-10 October, I and my office colleague, Lia, went on vacation to Singapore. And these are the shots of our journey :)